feelin blue !!
havent even visited this page in wat now seems and feels and indeed is after an age.. i havent yet been able to figur out y i really just stopped writing... i tried a lot... i had lots to express upon but i chose suppression over expression... y and how did i come to this point..? and wat finally made me come out of d bubble now.. ? well i would figure them out later... this blog i guess had always been about me and my feelings from a diferent life of mine so even this tym its dat different life dat brought me here...
they say tym is d biggest healer... but wat if one msters d art of fakin d healing ... wat if tym were never able to heal nethn and one just kept pretendin that its better now.. and that it really doesnt matter and its okay.. it might b hypothetically but it never has been in reality.. its just the ironical fact that one at tyms just doesnt get to decide or to choose... those are the hardest to overcme.. u can live wid a choice u made .. u decision u mde gone wrng.., but wat abt the ones dat were urs to choose from but were decided upon by others.. dis one goes out to the people who i dedicated d entire me to... i just wanted to apologise for nethn that i myt have done to hurt them or that has driven dem away today frm me... but they will never know of how much i really needed them a nd still do and no matter what feelings dont chnge.. tym does.. people at tyms do.. but wat we were remains a part of us ... new things .. new people just keep adding to our lives and us....
its beeen hard to choose to stay away.. its been horribly heart shattering to not be abble to hear ur voice or come to you wen in need... and not be there for u ... i love ...
misss u ...
dis one especially goes to a sourheart i once knew,.. i want to make it ryt.. coz not being friends with u is one of the hardest things i had to do... i needed tym and u dinn have d patience... things wetn outa hands unknowngly and widout my acknwoledgmnt... u completed me... and m happy ryt now.. jss u r misssing....
together and apart !!
ps- need d pants.. need u ... took long nuff but m here,,, and i still luv u .. u r not the long lost friend.. u r d friend i lost and i found from tym n tym again... and i wannan find u again...
xoxo
